LOOK AT THIS! #1

Welcome to "LOOK AT THIS!", the segment where James sees something cool and then tells you about said cool thing in varying lengths of winded speech! YIPEE the crowd cheers, YAHOO the camera crew joins in, WOW WOW WOW the entire country of canada adds in a moment of great national unity inevitably leading to a golden age of collaboration, innovation and peace. "Dang" James says 20 years in the future, undoubtedly reflecting on the impact such a blog post had made

I've just recently gotten back onto Instagram which is, admittedly, potentially startelling news im sure... HOWEVER when I decided to log back on I had come in with a plan to attempt a miracle surgery on my algorithm to remove all the absolute garbage the bots of the internet have filled it with. The mission? Animation-ify the whole thing! A simple three step program, 1.) Comb through my following list, the very same thats been forged by 14 year old James and each James that proceeded him. Easy enough but PAIN STAKINGLY long! 2.) start clicking on art like its going out of style! Any fans of rhythem heaven here? I felt like I was playing the candy catch stage, keeping the candy while smacking away the bugs.... except in this case the candy is art and th- You get it. 3.) repeat step 2 but with reels because apparenlty instagram is eternally jelous of TikTok and is in a constant state of copying its homework but somehow worse. This part in particular demands of willpower of steel not to get distracted by some surprisingly well crafted skit or particularly witty humour but I was on a mission and thus had no time for the pleasures of "Reality". ANYWAYS, eventually the work payed off and I was blessed with clips of THIS BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL MUSIC VIDEO

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Let what drove you, flow you

This is the phase I'm currently in. Having recuperated and reconvened with myself post-college, I feel as though the hardest thing to see is what still inspires me. The hardest part about it all is that sometimes I don't even remember what drove me in the first place to re-investigate if it still drives me now. I suspect this will take a couple days of being with myself, it's not something that can be rushed, it's more a state to slow gently alongside. The plan is to clean out old photos from my phone, re-organize spaces in my house, reflect on the versions of me from the past in order to rediscover what had built it. In a way it's the ultimate reflection, but I don't want it to trap me in yesterday, instead I want it to pour out like a river that will guide me toward tomorrow, to where I'm going next! I've always had a feeling inside me, and that's why I haven't given up! That's why I don't ever think of giving up!, but it's time to draw power from that feeling instead of just using it to keep my head above water.